Well, I think I may now know why I am such an odd, eccentric, awkward, nerdy, outcast, socially incapable person.. I may have Asperger's Syndrome.
I never heard of it until a couple years ago from people on DA saying they had it, but I did not know what it was because I did not bother to research into it. A while ago a relative was diagnosed with it. So one day I decided to research it and found that it totally describes me and my life. I haven't been diagnosed, but with the descriptions I found, it seems highly likely that I have it.
If this is the case, it gives me some sense of peace to know the actual reason for my lifelong alienation, and not being able to fit in. I'm like 40 years old and just now I find out - dammit.